Making Demands.

What if you walked into work on Monday, went right to your boss and started demanding things. “I want to work less hours, make more money, have an expense account, come in when I want, leave when I want and have a bigger office”. How do you think your boss would respond?

This week I came to realize this is exactly what I do with my higher power with my grief. I turn to my higher power and make demands. I want my sister back, AND I want to keep all the lessons I learned from her death, I don’t want to be sad, I want things to be the way they were, I want to be my old self, etc. It is all about what I want.

Since I made that realization, I decided that I needed to work in harmony with my higher power. There is some things that I must do to get the things that I want out of life. It is how much I can give, not how much I can take.

Every morning I have spent about 10-15 minutes trading my expectation for appreciation. I focus on what I have in my life, not what is lacking. I listen for my higher power’s instructions on how to take inspired actions (rather than just busy work). I find gratitude for all the small things like waking up, breathing and moving. The blessing of waking up in the morning gives me the opportunity to do more of the divine work I came here to do.

Now, if you do not feel you have a divine purpose, please take some time to find it (or be open to let it find you).  Your greater purpose can take many forms, both big and small. It may have a great impact on many people, or, it may just influence one person who will then in turn influence many. It took me many years to acknowledge my higher purpose. In fact, I actively pushed it away. Once I let it in and discovered my compelling future (after the loss of Lauren), it inspires me to sit at my computer every Sunday to write this email. It motivates me to run my peer support group every Thursday night.

What inspires you? What does your compelling future look like?